I want to post this here so that every one will have a better chance of seeing it. There comes a time is everyone life, that they struggle, have issues, as well as medical problems. For some of us (me) it seems to be all of these things taking a huge toll on my life. I have a lot of decisions to make in the very near future that could either help me or at least try to get some quality back in my life.
You all know of most of the things that I have been through in the last two years especially. It appears that all the drama, the loss of muscle tone, the loss of a desire to be around people, and to do things has caught up with me in a way that I can not conquer it on my own, so I am seeking some help. With that said, I have sought some professional help to guide me and set me in the right direction to gain control of my life and life style back.
I had another round of the medicine this morning, the one that is not doing anything, and the doctors and I had yet another long talk, along with a new doctor that was thrown into the mix. From all that has taken place in my life, for the last several years, it has caught up with me, and putting me flat on my ass. I have no life as of right now, and they know that. On their suggestions and my asking, I am going to be gone for a while starting next week as an in/out patient for some things that need to change for me. The biggest one, is getting off of all perscribed medicines, and going on an all natural supplement regiment. I have tried it on my own, but now have huge chemical imbalance in my body that is not good. I will be attending an all natural supplement therapy group as well as some counseling to get my body and mind in sink again.
I have to learn to cope with the aggressiveness of this now active sarcoidosis, as well as get the full healing that I never got from the operation on my inner ear. This will all take time and study. I know that I will be on a very very strict monitored regiment, and have to have evaluations daily for a while. The only good thing is I will be home at nights, as of right now.
I will be signing off of all the sites I visit, and will not return until I and the doctors feel it is right to do so. And that could be a long time as we see it now.
If there is anyone that I have made promisses to and have not done, I am truly sorry, but they will get done and handled when I can. I will be on here through Sunday, and then my time has to become something different to get back to being who I was. Most of you have know me for a while, and trust me when I say that I am just a shell of the man I used to be. I have to find Charlie and put him back in his shell, if at all possible.
Please keep me in your prayers and I am sure I will think of you all daily, but I will have to leave it at that for now.
Thanks and God Bless
Charlie
